Facing the Past continues.....

Life's management is very complex... Many things you do just to regret later. 
Then the question arises why do certain things ... But life is such a canvas that every day every moment you fill it with various color of emotions and yes just when we want to improve our paintings later in life we feel that there should have been provision of correction but sadly that's not there. 
In life you have to finish one chapter to start reading the next one. 
Reading many chapters simultaneously brings a lot of chaos and confusion in life and hence it's advisable to take one step at time, it maight take a little long but will surely reach a safe goal. 
Many tough lessons have come when I look behind and as peace is there I am in perfect mind to read them with clear mind and heart. 
Most important is TIME never ever waste it cause you can earn back everything but once the time has gone will never come back. Use it sparsely on right cause and for the right people. 
Keep away from those negative wibes as they give you nothing but drain you each and every moment. Someone wisely mentioned that if you lose an hour in the morning you will be searching it for the next 23 hours a day. 

Facing past continues....

When she looks behind in this peace of today the past appears to be cloudy... As the eyes are filled with tear drops that are not ready to fall in her present as they will create more chaos.
She is not blaming anyone .. No excuse .. No regrets.
Just a question to self ..? Don't you think there was a better approach to life? Without making it so complex and complicated.
Maturity follows after a few setbacks? Very weird but true .. You value things only when you have either lost them or they have left you ... I am talking about TIME the biggest culprit , come what may it just goes on and moves on.
You can lose any thing in life and earn that back but once the TIME has gone it will not come back.
While we were young always heard elders advising us that Don't waste time... Time is money.. Time is precious...
It is and that's the Fact.
Use it with care.
Make use of your life .. Make it worthy.... Something you will be proud of.

Facing the Past continues.....

Some painful and unattended thoughts that she had buried deed ,surfaced.
Distinctly she remembered that it was a Friday and she was very excited that this weekend is going to be very special for her.She was on the invite list of the Book Inauguration function....dress accessories ...makeup ...all was set in her mind without confusion.
He came from work and was in a good mood , not those irritating mood.
She just mentioned that tomorrow she is going to this book inauguration function and the excitement was overflowing. He sternly looked at her and asked who are accompanying and she gave the names of friends... He replied then you can go cause I would not have allowed you alone.
Suddenly she crashed.....she was given permission because of her friends? Doesn't he trust me?
After all these years ...
Then the analysis started ...it's not religion... Not the gender inequality .... It's the male attitude ...
Or is it they see the world as they think.
She did not go .... Of course one more chapter of suppression ...
She did not ask , he did not say .... 

Facing the Past

The silence in the house is rarest and I really don't recollect when I had experience.
Actually it's not the silence in the house it's peace in mind .. So very weirded once you are peaceful deep in everything around you is so peaceful... That's natures rule.
When there is peace inside and out then this dreadful time comes when the past starts coming in front of you.
When there is peace than that means there is no expectations from anyone so then you and only you are responsible for your past. Whole life you spent fast doing every job thrown at you many a time mechanically not giving much thoughts on the results. As time flies you get used to the outcomes whether right or wrong and move on ... Those actions now come in peace.
They say Past comes haunting ... When in peace.
It never leaves you lonely.